Posted on April 29, 2008

He’s wasting his time if you ask me. Instead of applying and getting things over with with this practicum (on the job training), he sits there, complaining most of the time… Or if not, doing moo stuff. Or if not, playing online games. The type of person who will achieve a goal, but the goal is very far away. Sad to say, I don’t like that type of person. I like a person who is motivated to achieve their goals early in life. Motivated enough to work hard for himself or herself for his family most especially their situation. I promised myself that I will try to at least change how he thinks about money and life. And that he has to SAVE money. Sadly, I failed to do that… And I can’t seem to do it. Because of him. Because of his attitude. Because of his way of thinking.

It’s my second day of on the job training… And I do find it a bit boring but fun, most especially with the people around me. They are just so welcoming and really fun to be with, especially that they joke most of the time…

I was hoping I could motivate him to work with his OJT as well during my first day at work since I was happy I decided to apply and work there. Unfortunately, it was only until his head… That motivation never went to his body to actually move and do something about it. He never did.

And I’m REALLY sad today, despite the fact that I should be happy. I feel really down today except for the fact that I’m really tired and sleepy. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Haven’t I tried hard enough to talk him into applying…? I’ve been pushing and pushing him to apply to jobs. Nothing happened.

Made a mistake…? I don’t know. Most of the time I think I didn’t. Although there are times I think I did. I DON’T KNOW! I don’t know anymore… I don’t want to think anymore…