Posted on April 1, 2008
I stumbled upon my Multiply site and opened a few pages… Pages of my elementary friends.. Yes… We still have contact with each other… Somehow, deep inside me, I really really miss them. I miss hanging out with them. 
I don’t know why… I’ve been so EMO the past days… I miss a lot of things… Like my high school friends, the real attitude of my boyfriend, the college friends that I know (somehow they had changed…) I don’t know… Maybe because I haven’t been in the real world myself. I keep telling people that things are done differently in the real world that we should all be prepared… But somehow, I think I’m not ready yet, even though I would want to go out already.. 
You know, like a debut that I’m already a graduate and is already facing the real world… I just have this feeling that, if now I miss them, what more if I’m already working, or outside the country, or something similar… Will I be able to handle it..? Maybe with the right set of people around me I might. Who knows…
Misty Says:
April 1st, 2008 at 1:29 pm
I love how your phrase “a debut that I’m already a graduate and is already facing the real world…” Sounds so dramatic. Not in a bad way. -_- When I was 19, I certainly did not feel grown up and ready to face the real world. Heck.. I still sometime act like a 14-year-old and there is nothing wrong it. I always tell those younger than me to enjoy being young. Because you only get to live once. If you grow up too fast, you can’t go back and relive your childhood or teen years. Sometimes when you’re at those relevation moments is when you feel a little emo. But I say its normal. It’s like a cycle for me.
I don’t understand why my mom is so strict about me and dating. After all, I’ll be 23 this year and I really REALLY do not need her to control my love life (not to mention that my boyfriend is 30). I swear if my mom could manage it, she’ll control my love life til I am 40. *sigh*