Everything is not what it seems…

Weird things had happened for the entirety of this week. But before I get to that, I just wanted to say that I took the qualifying exam for the Japanese Government Scholarship for next year’s batch last June 23rd. I don’t know if I’ll pass, but I have a very, VERY strong feeling that I won’t… So I won’t count on it anymore and just look for a job so that I can save up to take a certificate degree at the Philippine School of Interior Design. I always wondered how my life would have been if I took the Interior Designing course instead of taking the Computer Science course. So, I am gonna save up for it and try to enter there by next year, hopefully.

The past week I’ve been staying at my sister’s place in the city because I attended a Job Expo at our school. But, I only went one day though. ANYWAYS… I also went out with my college friends and we went Laser Tagging! It was fun… But it got a bit annoying when you kept on being shot and you don’t know where it’s coming from only to find out that there are people all around you. But bottom line, I had fun with them.

Okay, so what is up with the weird thing I’m talking about in the first paragraph… First thing is first, I have a boyfriend and we’ve been going out for the past year and 11 months (going 2 years this July 18th) and I love him. Now that that is established, on to the weird thing(s).

When I was on my way to school last Wednesday (I took the bus from our province going to the city), we passed by one of the oldest universities in the country (where I would have studied if I did not take Computer Science) and as usual, I was looking at the people walking by the sidewalks. It was very unusual for me to see lots and lots of people. But then again, I thought that it was 12PM and it’s lunch time so maybe all the students were then having their lunch. And then I thought to myself, every time I pass by this school, I’m always looking for someone. And just about a few weeks ago, I thought of FINALLY stop dreaming that that particular person will one day forgive me and become friends with me.

I hope of all the times that I passed by this university that I would see him walking down the sidewalk with his girlfriend, or maybe he’s eating with her or something of the sort. But no. The time that I had finally let go of that dream, the time that I saw a very, VERY familiar back walking at the sidewalk alone, bringing an umbrella, probably meeting his girlfriend. (I know his back because there had been lots of times that I walked behind him with my friends during high school and I kept on staring at it) ANYWAYS. And so, I was stunned again.

Weird because I had finally stopped wishing to see him or maybe pass by him some time. And then that’s when he decides to show up. After 4 long years of wanting to see him.

Okay, next weird thing. I just learned that my ex had bought himself a PS2 using his own money back when we were only first year college students. Okay, yeah, I know, what’s weird about that, right? Well the weird thing is, he never went to visit me in the city during the last few months of our relationship and never gave me anything except when there are special occasions like my birthday, V-day, and X-mas. And when I learned that he was able to buy himself a PS2 using his own money at that time, I started to wonder… He was able to save up that much…? When did he buy it? Was it before or after the break up? Cause if it was before, I will definitely hate him for that – he traded me over PS2!!! Who wouldn’t be mad at that!? If it was after, well, I can’t blame him. But then again, past IS past. So, why bother. I’ll just live in the present…