Posted on December 24, 2007

It’s Christmas Eve, and I’m not supposed to feel like this. How exactly do I feel? I feel so lonely… I’m not even supposed to be bored at this time of the day, at this time of the holidays. Yet I am… I haven’t talked to him in a straight conversation the whole day, my older sister and I were driving all over town the whole day, I haven’t seen him (through webcam) the whole day! How am I supposed to spend a great Christmas?!

I know, I know… I’m ranting again… But I don’t know what to do anymore. This is not me. I am supposed to be happy because it’s Christmas, like any other Christmas that I had had. Although this time is a bit different because for once in Christmas time, I am not single… But you find me alone in my room typing this. Meaning, I am not happy like I thought I would be, like I thought I should be.

Where is he… He’s been playing in his laptop the whole day (which by the way I told him not to install games because his laptop is supposed to be for WORK), expecting me to reply to his text every time he does. He hasn’t been online, meaning my bill will go up again, with means another sermon-like-joke from my parents…

Sigh… I am seriously BORED. I also apologize for boring you guys with this entry…

Anyway, here’s a greeting from me to you guys: