Posted on September 12, 2008

Its been a while since I last updated you guys with what had been happening. Well, for starters, we are now down to our second to the last term of college… The previous term had been very successful to a lot of people… It is also my second time to be a Dean’s Lister during my college years. The following are the grades I acquired along with the subject/course:

• THSIST1 (Thesis) - 4.0
• INTPHIL (Introduction to Philosophy) - 4.0
• PRCIST1 (Practicum) - 3.0
• MEASDEV (Measurement and Development) - 3.0
• LITERA1 (Philippine Literature) - 3.0
• 3DGRAFX (3D Graphics) - 3.0

And my calculated Grade Point Average for the whole term is 3.325 which makes me a part of the Dean’s List. Whoooot!

I am happy about the results of my grades…

Next up, our organization’s Teambuilding. It took place in a resort near my home in the province so it was easy to navigate everyone where to eat, what is good to do, and what is fun to do. Of course, I wasn’t alone in the planning of the food and stuff.. Hazel, a high school friend, helped cause she is also a part of the organization.

So, the “outing” was fun except for this little incident that happened to us the night before everyone took off and went back to our normal lives preparing for school the next week. Since we then had 2 villas and we use only one villa for the activities or meetings or breakfast/lunch/dinner/drinking sessions that we have, the night that I was talking about, the villa where no one was there, specifically the villa where the boys stayed, was robbed. A Motorola celphone and 2 wallets were found missing that night. We had reported it to the security of the resort and until now, about 3 days later, they are still investigating the case. If you ask me, they are just taking their time, and not taking this case seriously. For crying out loud, admit that it’s your fault already. For more information about the incident, click here.

It would have been fine if only that happened during the break. The next day as I was talking to my dad about the incident that night, he gave out a heart breaking news. My childhood friend and best friend died.

She had a heart ailment ever since she was born, and thus she can’t really tire herself much. I really don’t know the details. All I know is that she was found in their room, her lips were already black. Her mom told us that it was like she already knew it was her time… Her normal routines were off and that she said that she texted everyone in her family before she finally left. Her last text to them was the 3 words which she, I guess, rarely told them cause everyone was shocked when she texted these words to them. The last words she texted which had meaning… “I love you”. Then her next texts, according to her mom which was then according to her aunt, was senseless. Or that her last text to her aunt was “………………” and that was it.

And the next day according to her mom when they saw her, they immediately ran to my uncle’s truck to transport her to a near-by hospital. I forgot why they couldn’t go for that option, so then they headed for their truck. But then her mom and 2 of my uncle’s employees saw a Barangay Tanod (like a Captain of a smal municipality) who was wearing all black standing infront of our house and a tricycle waiting infront of my grandparent’s house. The Barangay Tanod pointed at the tricycle and told them, why go to the car when there’s a tricycle there whose motor was already running. For one thing, we don’t get it why there was a Barangay Tanod there cause we live inside a subdivision. Also, what is the coincidence that there is a running motorcycle infront of the house. Another weird thing is that the tricycle driver asked her mom where they would like to take my best friend. And not which hospital. And take note, after they had gone down in the hospital without even paying the tricycle, when her mom went out to look for it, it was gone. When we heard that, we freaked out because it was like she was really being picked up by God..

I don’t want to give out anymore details as it saddens me more. She’s been always with me ever since. Although I haven’t been keeping in touch with her much after high school… Who can blame me? Well, I can. We’ve grown far apart from each other, but then, she always thought that I was there, just a text away from her. Which is true.

She was buried yesterday morning… I wasn’t even there… During that time, I was asleep in my parents bed, because my niece woke me up a couple of times during the night cause she was calling for my parents, then for her yaya (nanny).

A lot has happened to me the past days. And I thought this 1 week break would be fun… I got my wish though. The wish that the time I go swimming back to the resort which we stayed in last week, I will be with my boyfriend. And I was. But the downside are those two things. It saddens me to think that anytime, we can really leave this earth. That anytime, that Barangay Tanod can come and pick us up. It’s just a matter of time when and how.

Pauline Joy T. Cunanan, rest in peace. I love you, my friend. I miss you too. I wish I can talk to you still… I’m sorry.

Posted on April 30, 2008

Tori messaged me a while back (like weeks ago) that I had been tagged. Goodie… Not.. Not that I hate these types, well, I’m just not in the mood that time.. And since I am SO bored, maybe I can get it..

? Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
? Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
? At the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list their breads.
? Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

Random Fact Number 1: I used to play Golf before I became a teen and before my dad stopped forcing us to take lessons
True. I think the only person in our family that didn’t undertake that lesson was my oldest sister. The rest (yes, even my mom) had to undergo that training. And somehow, now, I would like to take lessons again… I’d like to start again. I mentioned it to my dad once and he just told me, “Baka umitim ka” TRANSLATION: “You might get a ‘tan’(?)” Note, people here in the Philippines are not that white skinned as I would say… We are more of brownish in color… And some of us really have a hard time shedding out a few of that brownish skin and, let’s say, become whiter or paler in color… And the rays of the sun is not helping that, especially when playing the said sport, Golf.

Random Fact Number 2: I used to take piano and voice lessons
Before high school started for me, my mom made us take summer classes. Me and my younger sister took piano and voice lessons. And that was the first and last thing I had.

Random Fact Number 3: I started to draw when I was only in Grade 1 (I think)
Due to the influence given to me by my older sisters, I started to draw. Sadly, I had stopped, just last year on January 1, 2007. And since then, I haven’t made any serious drawings… All I did were doodles… If I would do some serious drawings, it would mean that I badly need it.

Random Fact Number 4: I wanted to become a Doctor… BEFORE!
Because my parents, grandparents (both sides), uncles and aunties are all on the line of medicine, of course a kid would be influenced to take the same profession. Sadly for me, I disliked looking a blood, I disliked the feeling of having a needle inside your skin, let alone someone you don’t know is putting it there. So I left it.

Random Fact Number 5: I love the sound of nature
I just love the sound of nature. Me and my older sister even bought a few CDs when we went to Disney World last 2002. Sadly I haven’t really gotten the time to listen to them…

Random Fact Number 6: I took swimming lessons but stopped right in the middle of the lessons
I know I wasted money on that. But the fact that they throw you to the pool and you don’t even know what to do and they don’t even try to help you even though you think that you might be drowning…? I just didn’t like that idea. So, I quit. I stopped attending the lessons. Well you can’t blame me! I didn’t want to drown! >.<

Random Fact Number 7: I have accounts on AIM, MSN, YM, ICQ before.
Yep. All 4 messaging softwares. I had accounts on all. I ditched ICQ a long time ago because I didn’t find the need for it. I was very much idle for AIM and MSN for a long time.. But I’ve been accessing it recently. My mostly used messenger software is YM.

Random Fact Number 8: I have the longest name in the family
All my 3 sisters have only 2 names inside the whole name. I have 3 having a total number of 32 characters (including spaces and my entire middle name).

Random Fact Number 9: People called me “Carolina” during Prep and Grade 1, and a few called me that during 1st and 2nd year high school
Carolina is the 2nd of my 3 names and people called me that a lot and I get pissed. Although it started to fade away during 3rd year high school and people barely called me that during 4th year. During Grade 2 through 6 people called me by my nickname.

Random Fact Number 10: My OJT is boring, period
I just started my OJT 3 days ago and right now, I am SERIOUSLY bored to death. No further explanation.

Posted on April 29, 2008

He’s wasting his time if you ask me. Instead of applying and getting things over with with this practicum (on the job training), he sits there, complaining most of the time… Or if not, doing moo stuff. Or if not, playing online games. The type of person who will achieve a goal, but the goal is very far away. Sad to say, I don’t like that type of person. I like a person who is motivated to achieve their goals early in life. Motivated enough to work hard for himself or herself for his family most especially their situation. I promised myself that I will try to at least change how he thinks about money and life. And that he has to SAVE money. Sadly, I failed to do that… And I can’t seem to do it. Because of him. Because of his attitude. Because of his way of thinking.

It’s my second day of on the job training… And I do find it a bit boring but fun, most especially with the people around me. They are just so welcoming and really fun to be with, especially that they joke most of the time…

I was hoping I could motivate him to work with his OJT as well during my first day at work since I was happy I decided to apply and work there. Unfortunately, it was only until his head… That motivation never went to his body to actually move and do something about it. He never did.

And I’m REALLY sad today, despite the fact that I should be happy. I feel really down today except for the fact that I’m really tired and sleepy. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Haven’t I tried hard enough to talk him into applying…? I’ve been pushing and pushing him to apply to jobs. Nothing happened.

Made a mistake…? I don’t know. Most of the time I think I didn’t. Although there are times I think I did. I DON’T KNOW! I don’t know anymore… I don’t want to think anymore…