Posted on March 1, 2008

I tend to feel down most of the time… Knowing that there are people whom I’m close to get hurt. :( There are sacrifices, I know… But why did it have to be them? Them of all people…? We are already a few in number when we’d graduate given that almost every term there are some who leave the school due to excess number of failures. Then there’s a group of people who I feel close with, get taken by not being able to make it through the defense (the major defense we have this term is what I’m talking about).

I can’t handle it anymore… Most especially this one person which me and Vinno was just talking about earlier. Tori. Tori, even though he wasn’t exactly one of the people I wanted to get to know to before, right now, I just feel that everything had been lain upon his shoulders. Although I congratulate him for winning the Legislative Representative for our batch for the next school year, he had just sacrificed enough just to make everything alright.. But nothing did… :(

Just a term ago, he had a loss… Not talking about it right here cause he might kill me… No one died, that’s the clue. Just something he lost. And now, I don’t even know what to say to him… Somehow I know it’s killing him to actually smile and pretend that everything is alright… As well as for his groupmates (although I haven’t actually seen them since last Thursday).

I. Want. This. To. End.

I think I’ve had enough sacrificing for one term. Everything is just about sacrificing subjects just to make it to the defense, but in the end, losing everything…

Everything just seems to be out of place… I wonder when things will be again…? :(