Posted on March 5, 2008

Before I start with what this entry is all about, I would just like to announce that I have a new blog buddy! :smile:  Her name is Miyuko, go visit her site by clicking her name in this entry or through the “friends” submenu… :grin:

Anyway…. About the title of this entry…..

I’ve had enough with my life. Not my life as in my whole life… But with my college life. It’s really, REALLY not fun anymore. I don’t care if you guys would read this, I don’t freakin’ care! I’ve had enough.

You come to me, asking me why I act like this? OH! Try and do that and everything will slap back to YOUR face @#$%&!!!!

Okay… Sorry for that random outburst… I’ve had enough with the people I’m surrounded with almost everyday. You come to school all bright and in a good mood; the next thing you know, you’re already pissed off, so early in the morning. That’s the reason why I am having a hard time going to school everyday. I know I still have a few of them left that I get to have fun with. The others? I DON’T FREAKIN’ CARE. I don’t care what happens to them, I don’t care about their attitude. All I know is that the sooner we finish everything, the sooner I leave their sight, the sooner I’ll be happy.

One person walks around, pretending to know everything. One person walks around pretending that he/she is always right. One person walks around pretending to have all the time in the world. One person walks around pretending to be a person we know them to be. One person walks around complaining we haven’t done anything. Oh yeah. That person(s) will NEVER leave my mind for he/she had done something terrible to it. It damaged me, it damaged us. You are free to do what you want, yet you scold us for doing what WE want.

Let me make things clear to YOU, I HATE plastics, got it? Oh fine, what the hell. He’s close to your boyfriend. SO WHAT. Talk to us like you’re a nobody. Talk to HIM like you’re friends. Oh, we never met. Sorry but I do NOT know who you are.

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Ermm.. I think I’ve had enough… I haven’t poured it all yet… If I did I might damage my laptop’s keyboard, so, I think I’d rather not do that… :sweatdrop:

I can’t wait for this final year to end. I want it to end like a breeze, like nothing happened, like I never met them. I’m sick and tired of their games. Talk to you, don’t talk to you. That’s their game. Whops. Wrong notation. Talk to you, don’t know you, change attitude. Talk to you, you’re close to my “lover”, change to happy attitude. There. Much better. :sad:

Sometimes, I seriously think that maybe I really shouldn’t have taken up computer studies after all. Maybe I was better off as an Interior Designer… :sad:

Posted on March 1, 2008

I tend to feel down most of the time… Knowing that there are people whom I’m close to get hurt. :( There are sacrifices, I know… But why did it have to be them? Them of all people…? We are already a few in number when we’d graduate given that almost every term there are some who leave the school due to excess number of failures. Then there’s a group of people who I feel close with, get taken by not being able to make it through the defense (the major defense we have this term is what I’m talking about).

I can’t handle it anymore… Most especially this one person which me and Vinno was just talking about earlier. Tori. Tori, even though he wasn’t exactly one of the people I wanted to get to know to before, right now, I just feel that everything had been lain upon his shoulders. Although I congratulate him for winning the Legislative Representative for our batch for the next school year, he had just sacrificed enough just to make everything alright.. But nothing did… :(

Just a term ago, he had a loss… Not talking about it right here cause he might kill me… No one died, that’s the clue. Just something he lost. And now, I don’t even know what to say to him… Somehow I know it’s killing him to actually smile and pretend that everything is alright… As well as for his groupmates (although I haven’t actually seen them since last Thursday).

I. Want. This. To. End.

I think I’ve had enough sacrificing for one term. Everything is just about sacrificing subjects just to make it to the defense, but in the end, losing everything…

Everything just seems to be out of place… I wonder when things will be again…? :(

Posted on February 29, 2008

I was using my computer like I always was… And I was playing a game to refreshen my mind when suddenly someone knocked on my door. I opened it to see my high school friend wanting to borrow a pitcher cause they wanted to drink the night away just for fun. I lent them one of the pitchers here and they left to drink.

A few minutes later, I was again in my computer playing when they suddenly knocked again. This time they were asking if I had a pair of speakers that I could lend them… Also, they brought with them a glass of blue liquid and gave it to me. I asked them what it was and they said it was Gatorade - the blue one. I went in and took a sip. It didn’t smell weird nor did it taste weird so I was tasked to finish the whole thing. After finishing it, they left empty handed cause I didn’t have a spare speakers here… Hazel congratulated me. I knew it. That thing had something in it…

Not that I can complain cause it’s already done… But hey, nothing happened… I mean that was like an hour or two ago and I’m still up :grin: But a few minutes after taking it I felt a bit light headed… That’s why I went straight to the shower cause I haven’t taken a shower since this morning… :sweatdrop:

Sigh…. Vodka… Gin…. Gatorade…. Gahhhhhh

Anyway.. I’m off to bed… I still have a long day a head of me tomorrow…

Posted on January 15, 2008

Before I would leave my 18-year-old self just in a few minutes, I just realized how little and yet how much I have already accomplished… Whether it would include my future in it or my hobbies… I’ve had a lot… Starting tomorrow till the next year will be my last year as a teenager and I cannot believe how time files so fast. Sigh…

Now, what exactly have I accomplished…? Well… There’s with my food habits… It’s a fact that I don’t eat much when school is ongoing… But when I do, well, let’s just say that I might as well grab a recipe book and cook all the time. And did I mention that I will eat ‘em..? :laugh: Then again, STRAWBERRIES are still my favorite. :yum:

Next would be my love for anime and j-drama… All I’ve been watching these past months had been j-dramas… You ca barely count the anime that I watched. Not that my love for anime is growing weaker, I just don’t find the next anime that I would love… Well, I did recently… Minami-ke. :laugh: What exactly had been my list for this year..? Well… Lets list them out then! :laugh:

• Hana Yori Dango
• Hana Yori Dango Returns
• Hana Kimi
• Bambino!

Not that much I know.. But hey, it’s a start. :laugh:

Friends… Well, I can say that I had my ups and downs with each and everyone of them… But everything turned out all right in the end… :tongue:

As for school… Well, maybe I haven’t been doing my best in a few other subjects.. But I definitely would make it to the list if I just did my best… :sweatdrop: Busy as usual when school is on, but I still try to find enough time for my family, friends and whoever there is out there that needs my attention. :rofl:

I am still your typical girl right…? I still am a fan of those old music, I know… No matter how old a certain thing is and that it might not be the thing that’s popular, there is still this little hinge in me that still says that, “Hey, I am still a typical girl fandomizing this music, right?” You get the picture… :sweatdrop:

Sigh… Last few minutes as an 18-year-old teen… I wish this next year for me will be a more fruitful one since it will also be my last year in college, I suppose…

By the way, I would like to thank each and every one of you who had visited this site for the past year… And thank you for being a part of my life.. There’s still my family to thank as well. And my friends - Kimihatz - who had always been there as well. :smile: College friends… And of course, my baby, Vinno. I love you so much! :smile: