Posted on July 10, 2008

As I write today, some people are still studying. It is midterms week after all. I just finished mine a while ago and I hope I got it correct… I’m not expecting for a perfect score on that of course cause I rarely get them.

It had been too hectic since I last blogged… Thesis submission, less sleep that day (we skipped class because we had 3 submissions that day - one is the thesis, then an assignment for 3d, then a filipino poem for our Philippine Literature class) We had to skip our Philippine Literature class just to be able to make it to the 3d graphics deadline and be able to submit the thesis as well. The condo was a mess that day. At around 9 in the morning, together with Joyce and Vinno, I went back to the condo and we continued to work. Karla followed a few hours later after she attended her class (Vinno skipped his morning class cause he got up late)

Sigh… Then there’s all the org stuff.. It’s been fun… While it lasted. The fun we had before… It’s gone, now that most of the people I was with before had left the org…

Sometimes I wish I could bring back the past and redo a lot of things. Like hanging out with the entire class like we used to do before… I dunno what happened to the class but suddenly everyone got separated… Who knows…? God knows..

Like what I said in the title, this is one hec-term, meaning hectic term. Org stuff going on especially that it is the first them and we had to at least satisfy almost all the members for them to be able to be attracted to the org and continue to attend general assemblies and stuff… Then there’s school stuff as well. Although the Batch Assembly hasn’t given us any work as of the currently, I think the work will start next term as the Batch Representative said… Then there’s never ending Thesis. This will only end when we finally get a certificate that says, “DIPLOMA presented to….” or something like that. Or with the togas and everything… Yeah yeah, I know.. You get my point. It’s just that, I feel like I want to graduate, but I’m not yet ready. Although I already have plans after college, I feel like I am going to MISS it all. Like how I missed High School (and I still do)

This is the last stage of schooling… At least for mandatory schooling. The next set of schooling will be upon the will of the learner… It had been 16 years of schooling (counting my 4th year this year) and still counting. I want to study after college… Question is, what and where. I got options… But I won’t tell until I actually pass the exams of course…

Sigh… So anyway, I got into video editing (AGAIN) and I made a few clips… Actually, just one.. Anyways, just check out my portfolio… It had increased due to the number of posters I had been doing…

I do hope everyone is doing fine..

Posted on June 3, 2008

Last Saturday, May 31, 2008, the SM Mall of Asia held the Manga’Holix Anime Convnetion. It was the very first convention that I went to and actually almost spent the entire day inside the convention center. Me and onee-chan usually just stick around and look at all the stuff they have in their booths then leave if we don’t like anything. But this time around, I was with Vinno (I forced him to go so I paid for his entrance ticket.. ) Anyways…

At first, I came only with Vinno. Then inside the convention center, I met up with Mag and Lucky (high school friends). Although, around maybe an hour before that, I had already stumbled upon them in the FullyBooked booth… But I didn’t want to get their attention at first because my ex was there and I didn’t know how to react. It was the first time in how many years since we last saw each other. I’m thinking it had been around 3 years or less a few months. And to think that we were still dating the last time I saw him.

Anyways, a coincidence was, me and Mag were looking at the same table and she didn’t even notice me! Again, that was fine with me cause I didn’t know how to act in front of him at that time… We had constant meetings, Mag and the others didn’t seem to notice me… Except for Tere… Although I don’t think she still remembered me cause I wasn’t hanging out much with them during high school…

And so me and Mag (she was with Lucky at that time) finally met by the cosplay stage… That wasn’t accidental this time. I had to give her something so we really intended to meet. Then when they left to look for my ex (Robee is his name), we went on as well. We roamed around once again for like, the 3rd time? Until a sudden meeting occurred. Me and Vinno were supposed to go buying those hats (I forgot what they called ‘em.. ) which they sold for me to buy for my niece and for my pleasure during that event… And while we were on our way to the other side of the convention center,  I really had to bump into him… Well, not that I’m really pissed. It’s just that, that exact meeting wasn’t the one I had imagined it to be… I was thinking that we’d really talk… But then again, I was way too shocked to even say the word “hi” in a lively manner! I just looked at him in the eye and muttered the word “hi”, then I went on.

I was hoping for another encounter that night when we went back to the convention center and met up with Tori and Erin… Mag and Lucky passed by so I called them since they looked really tired (we were sitting by one corner that time). So, I was hoping that I’d finally have some talk with him again and end his guilt once and for all. But, the time came that we had to leave, he still didn’t show up. I was thinking that, maybe he saw me beside Mag, the reason he didn’t come… Sigh…

I left the convention center with Tori, Erin, and Vinno to watch the Pyro Olympics which we didn’t get to appreciate because of the ceiling that was blocking the sky. (Everyone was there supposed to be watching the fireworks but, it wasn’t really something to appreciate because we can’t see! )

Anyways, enough with the drama! I’ll be posting a few images here next time… I still have to grab permission from my friend who had the camera with my pics in it…

The cosplay, by the way, had less Naruto than I expected! There was more who portrayed characters from Bleach. And to my surprise, there was even one from Taiho Shichauzo (Kobayakawa Miyuki to be exact). Although I didn’t like how she was portrayed. For one thing, sure Miyuki was a cop… But, I don’t think she had hand cuffs hanging around her waist.. I think it was well hidden insider her, pockets maybe..?

Then there was this CUTE CUTE CUTE KAWAIII kid who portrayed a character from the anime Prince of Tennis… I don’t know who the character is, I just know that the kid is so KAWAII!!!! *squeals* I’ll put up a pic soon too…

More on the Manga’Holix it self next time when I put up the pics…

Posted on April 1, 2008

I stumbled upon my Multiply site and opened a few pages… Pages of my elementary friends.. Yes… We still have contact with each other… Somehow, deep inside me, I really really miss them. I miss hanging out with them.

I don’t know why… I’ve been so EMO the past days… I miss a lot of things… Like my high school friends, the real attitude of my boyfriend, the college friends that I know (somehow they had changed…) I don’t know… Maybe because I haven’t been in the real world myself. I keep telling people that things are done differently in the real world that we should all be prepared… But somehow, I think I’m not ready yet, even though I would want to go out already.. You know, like a debut that I’m already a graduate and is already facing the real world… I just have this feeling that, if now I miss them, what more if I’m already working, or outside the country, or something similar… Will I be able to handle it..? Maybe with the right set of people around me I might. Who knows…

Posted on March 31, 2008

I tend to feel down most of the time… Knowing that there are people whom I’m close to get hurt. There are sacrifices, I know… But why did it have to be them? Them of all people…? We are already a few in number when we’d graduate given that almost every term there are some who leave the school due to excess number of failures. Then there’s a group of people who I feel close with, get taken by not being able to make it through the defense (the major defense we have this term is what I’m talking about).

I can’t handle it anymore… Most especially this one person which me and Vinno was just talking about earlier. Tori. Tori, even though he wasn’t exactly one of the people I wanted to get to know to before, right now, I just feel that everything had been lain upon his shoulders. Although I congratulate him for winning the Legislative Representative for our batch for the next school year, he had just sacrificed enough just to make everything alright.. But nothing did… :(

Just a term ago, he had a loss… Not talking about it right here cause he might kill me… No one died, that’s the clue. Just something he lost. And now, I don’t even know what to say to him… Somehow I know it’s killing him to actually smile and pretend that everything is alright… As well as for his groupmates (although I haven’t actually seen them since last Thursday).

I. Want. This. To. End.

I think I’ve had enough sacrificing for one term. Everything is just about sacrificing subjects just to make it to the defense, but in the end, losing everything…

Everything just seems to be out of place… I wonder when things will be again…?

Posted on March 10, 2008

I cannot believe what I just did. I FINALLY stood up for myself. And yet, here I am, still crying over the fact that SHE said WE ARE NOT TRYING OUR BEST TO CHANGE and that WE ALWAYS TAKE THINGS TO SERIOUSLY. (*#$!!!!!

Fortunately, my sister didn’t allow me to leave their place until I was ok… So, I didn’t have to see her face to face. Not until tomorrow. I am here, sitting, talking to her through text. I know they have class right now, but what the hell! She’s also at fault why I’m still sick.

I don’t care if I had to face her boyfriend. This is what I, what WE think. I’m just voicing it out to her so that, hopefully, everything will return to normal after this.

I HATE THIS LIFE! I HATE COLLEGE!

If anyone can tell me why college is fun, then I won’t change my mind about what I just experienced… Or maybe it was just fate that I get to face someone like HER, so that I can build up my self-confidence.